Last Wednesday was a rough night for Adam fans everywhere. Personally, I cried for several hours . I heard from other people who got physically ill. I managed two hours of sleep – how, I’ll never know. The next day at work my boss had to send me home early because I couldn’t function. I’m sure this sounds silly to the average person, but as I said in an earlier post, I’d been emotionally invested in Adam for months, and I so badly wanted America to validate all the wonderful things I’d seen in him.
I didn’t know how I was going to force myself to feel better. I commiserated with other fans on the chat, but the following days were dark. The “results” moment was replayed on TV over and over again. The previously-silent Adam-haters wiggled out of the woodwork and leapt onto the Kris Allen bandwagon. Articles proclaimed that the voting hadn’t even been close, and that “America got it right.” Every word I read kept me in my funk. How could I move on when the media was calling me a “Bitterbert?”
Then a strange thing happened. I watched and read Adam’s post-finale interviews and put aside my pain enough to really, really listen to what he was saying. He said he was happy. He said he was excited. He was glad for the opportunity. He smiled – no, not just smiled – he beamed. At first I thought he was just putting on a brave face. How could he not be disappointed? I would have been. How could anyone not be?
But I should have known better. Look very closely at his post finale photos. The smile doesn’t look forced to me. And on camera, I never saw his smile drop when he thought the camera had moved off him. (Not to name names, but I saw other contestants do this during the show.)
In Adam’s interview with the press on Friday, when asked what he would say to people who were disappointed he didn’t win, Adam replied, “there’s no need to dwell on the negative, and we should look forward to my album. I’m totally okay with it…”
Suddenly I’m feeling good! Adam himself – not other fans, not the media, but the man himself — is telling us it’s okay. And I believe him. If Adam is as sincere as I think he is, there’s no reason to doubt his words.
So, people, what do you think? How did you react when he lost the title, and are his assurances enough for you to heal and move forward?
I, for one, can sleep again. And I’m looking forward to seeing what Adam will do next to amaze and inspire us.